• Another Attack

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• The Seed of Life
  
  

Twenty-four hours after sending out the last newsletter, there was an attack at my home. This incident was very small compared to what's happening on the planet right now, but it touched me very personally and deeply.

We had just gotten a pair of bottle-fed Nubian kid goats to have as pets and general brush clearing machines. They were adorable and would follow people around like dogs. They were housed in an outdoor fenced area that we thought was totally secure. But one night one of them was killed and the other badly mauled by a dog that was occasionally seen on the property at night. The dog had squeezed under the fence. We discovered the scene the next morning, horrified. The second goat had somehow escaped from the pen and was found, injured and hiding in a ditch. After two weeks of nursing her, she was back to health. All of a sudden my quiet home retreat became unsafe and dangerous for my family, and the dog was still out there.

After 911, my partner questioned the nature of evil. I asked her if the dog was evil and her first response was, Yes. The dog had killed for the pleasure of killing. But the dog's owners were the ones at fault. I said that I wasn't sure — It was just the way the dog was. It's like the story of the snake.

One day a lady finds a snake beside her woodpile, outside in the winter cold. It's almost frozen to death. She brings the snake into her home and warms him by the fire. As the snake returns to life, he bites the lady. She asks him, Why did you bite me after I saved your life? And the snake says, Because it's my nature. So it appears that there are all forms of evil, which all of us are encountering at this time.

I have just finished another chapter in the first section of my book, "The Heart of Soul Healing." This first section is all on our web site. We published it last December as a gift to all of you. This last chapter has new / old information that I believe is very important to what each one of us is now experiencing.

The chapter is called "The Seed of Life" and I'm sharing it below. To best understand it, however, please read the first section of "The Heart of Soul Healing," as the information builds up to this chapter.I had to live through eighteen years of experiences to be able to write "The Seed of Life." I hope you enjoy it.

Have a great Holiday Season!

Some time had passed since I received new information from Spirit. My previous guidance had been to approach every healing session with the same focus and love that had been present at my very first.

As my healing work continued, I was given new guidance to focus on taking my power. Each night I practiced doing so in a lucid dreaming state although I wasn't sure why I needed to do this. What would my power be used for? I followed my inner guidance and knew at the right time I would be given the answers. I practiced quieting my mind and allowing my inner power to flow for four to five hours each night for almost a year before I completely surrendered, without judgment, to the process.

I kept expanding my inner awareness through the dimensions of my world until I felt all powerful. The more I allowed my power to come through, the quieter I became. I realized once again that Creator-Source does not have boundaries or limitations. Only our ideas limit our connection to Source. But what happens when we claim our power and become a true reflection of the Creator — a pure mirror of our full creative potential made physical?

Message from Spirit
In December 2000, I was asked by my Higher Self to stop another teacher who was interfering with the planet's evolution. This message upset me because it went against everything I had been teaching. Who was I to judge another? I always believed that whatever a teacher was sharing was right for them and the people they attracted.

Then it came to me that my Higher Self was asking me to stop giving this person energy. I felt in harmony with this and completely stopped thinking about or giving any energy towards this person. This surprisingly set off a chain reaction with my family and friends. Since we are all interconnected, the withholding of energy from this teacher caused chaos in everyone else. I was amazed by the compounding effect this act had on everyone. I started to understand that I was the cause of the original problem with our plant's evolution by holding onto an idea that kept the dynamic tension alive between the other teacher and me. My Higher Self showed me this dynamic. It was never about the other teacher and always about myself.

What would happen to Earth if we stopped giving our energy or thoughts in the old way? What if you were the one holding onto an idea that kept human consciousness from changing?

Letting Go of the Past
In April 2001, I gave my first Heart & Soul Healing Teacher Training. I was now sharing all the knowledge and experiences I had collected and was releasing to my students all that I held most dear. This was very freeing, and yet I felt vulnerable and empty. At the same time, I also felt the power in being vulnerable. By sharing, I was opening myself to the place where creation lives inside me, which would allow further understanding to come through.

I knew that there was more for me to understand about the sphere of creation. Previously I had sensed that there was a presence in the center of the sphere that I assumed was me. Later I understood that the presence was the physical manifestation of my Higher Self. As I looked at the image of my Higher Self in my mind's eye, I could see a speck in the center of the chest where the heart and soul merge. This speck on the chest of the image of my Higher Self looked like a tiny seed with endless depth. I sensed it was a place where a new reality, a new awareness could be created. I thought of the speck as the seed of creation, and if I could access it, I would be fully empowered. I knew more information would come when I was ready to take the next steps of understanding.

As I observed this seed of creation, an uneasy feeling came upon me. The essence of the seed was a powerful, gigantic energy — like a dragon. I felt that if I let it out it would consume or destroy me as well as others. The depth of this illusion made me concerned about taking all of my power. What would happen if I awoke the sleeping dragon of creation inside myself? Why did I feel that taking all of my power was dangerous, that I would misuse it?

Is this energy — the immense personal power of creation that we each have — feared by us as well as coveted? Do we suffer from the illusion that it is bad or evil? Are we taught by our history as humans, by our religion, that if we fully take our power and awaken the seed of creation within us, that this has dire consequences? Is this why I saw my own seed of creation like a dragon?

There are symbols of powerful beasts in many cultures. Dragons, serpents, lions, gargoyles, and other archetypes often appear in artwork along with representations of spiritual beings. It is within our human nature to attempt to reconcile the savage part of ourselves. We see our animal nature as a beast — a consciousness that attacks, controls, or harms others for personal gain. Reflecting on human history and life in our world today, it is obvious that many people have gained feelings of excitement and power by hurting and controlling other people. If I took my power would I do the same? Was that the illusion of fear that I felt?

The Old Testament of the Bible, along with other religious texts, promote the concept that God is punishing and judgmental and will destroy us if we go against his will. These teachings have historically kept humanity in fear and separation and have been reinforced by people who see tragic events as punishment.

I am sure that religious history and my own past life experiences with a punishing, judgmental God also reinforced the illusion of fear about this destructive power, the dragon that surrounded my own seed of creation.

I have a very good idea about the power of these emotions. In my experience conducting thousands of past life regressions, when asked to go into their most powerful, destructive, and evil lives, a high majority of my clients describe the addictive quality of these states. This drove them on to recreate again and again situations to feel this power again and again. If they didn't recreate this energy, they simply didn't feel alive.

I really felt that I needed to let my inner power come out in a positive way so that the creative part of this energy would have a different focus, both for me personally and for the planet. I did not want any part of continuing to recreate the disastrous path that our ancestors created throughout history.

A Left-handed Spiritual Path
Several years ago I was in England with Shirley Ann Holly and heard that there might be a copy of a book at Oxford University that described the Kaula Circle, a secret mystery school in the East at least 3,000 years old. The book was called "Secrets of the Kaula Circle," by Elizabeth Sharpe, and was published in London in 1936. Elizabeth Sharpe was a western woman who married a Tibetan lama. Her husband used the energy of the Kaula Circle and she studied details of the process.

The Tibetan Lamas of the Kaula Circle used the science of the breath, or Hata Yoga. Hata Yoga is the conjunction of the Sun and the Moon,
= Sun and Ta = Moon, controlled by using the right and left nostril. Her lama husband lived his life according to the these breathing techniques. The breathing worked in twenty-four minute cycles. The guidelines listed twenty to thirty-five functions for each breath and what activities should relate to each Ha or TA breath. I found it surprising that the same sun, or right breath, was used both for going to war and making love. The left, or moon breath, would be used, for example, to earn money or plant a garden. There were also specific thoughts to go with each sun or moon breath.

Sharpe's book clearly showed that some of the lamas and maharajas of the inner circle practiced the breath work of the Kaula Circle to increase their own personal power. They also utilized the sexual energy of others to create their own immortality and to keep themselves young. I believe that they were out of balance with their own male and female energetics and used others to achieve their goals. Young Indian girls were often purchased for their beauty and innocence. Once acquired, the women were treated as goddesses while they were used by the lamas who harvested their life energies. Orgies were arranged to generate even more energy. The young men brought in to participate in the orgies rew old and unhealthy before their time while the lamas remained young. The Lamas of the Kaula Circle who participated in these rites got caught up in the misuse of sexual-survival energy and became possessed by their addiction. Sharpe noted that the lamas of the Kaula Circle could be physically very beautiful, but had dark or black lips.

I have known many people who irresponsibly run other people's sexual energy through themselves without full awareness of its potential power. Some of these people are fully aware of what they are doing and some are not. I was surprised at the depth of this misuse within the Kaula Circle. I found it challenging to understand why these lamas, who at one time knew better, had became so caught up in the seductive concept of immortality that they became lost in their misuse of sexual energy. They fell into the energy of the physical dimension and lost their spiritual connection.

The base chakra is set up with three potential vibrations: basic human sexual-survival energy, sexual-creative energy (when two people come together as one) and the third, creative energy. The trick is to learn how to run our creative energy wide open without attracting distorted sexual-survival energy. Creative energy is a very powerful vibration and can create the spark to new realities.

The issues of mystery schools of today are energetically similar to the issues of yesterday — that is, as a creator to be completely open to another co-creator without using each others' energy. The Kaula Circle lamas are an extreme example of misuse of this power. There are, of course, many people who are lesser examples of the same misuse of the sexual-creative energy of others and the collective consciousness of people.

Immaculate Conception
We found another book at Oxford University by Elizabeth Sharpe that described the Tantric doctrine of immaculate conception. As I read through this material I thought about what the true meaning of the immaculate conception might be and what the lamas and other spiritual teachers might have been looking for in their explorations. Although I found Sharpe's concepts on the immaculate conception vague, it got me thinking. The story of immaculate conception is an old one. I had seen it documented on a wall in Egypt one thousand years before Jesus was born.

As I reflected on the idea of immaculate conception, it became clear to me that we as individuals and creators have the ability to create our own immaculate conception and bring in a new consciousness. This is what Spirit was showing me with my vision of the seed of creation.

The seed of creation that I saw in the area of the heart and soul of my Higher Self is a bridge or gate that allows us a place to birth this new spirit within us. By merging ourselves with our Higher Selves, we will birth, through our own inner immaculate conception, a third essence — our Godselves, which is the combined energies of ourselves and our Higher Selves merged into one. This third essence creates our own trinity: ourselves, our Higher Selves, and our Godselves.

How do we get to place where we can create our Godselves?

• By balancing the male and female within us.
• By taking our power and owning it without fear.
• By staying in our creative energy and allowing it to flow.

By fully taking our power, being balanced with our creative energies, and allowing our own inner male and female to come together, we recreate the energetic spark of the immaculate conception in the womb of the seed of life where we become the mirror of our Higher Selves becoming physical. Becoming conscious is the reflection of everything and everyone. By no longer giving energy to the past, we allow a new future and a change in our timeline — an open timeline that allows for spiritual immortality.

When we master all of the above, we move into a new space inside our seed of creation and we birth our Godselves. And birthing our Godselves is ascension. It is the gift of instantaneous creation. It is the creation of Heaven on Earth.

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