*First Experience with the Collective Consciousness of
*First Experience with the Collective Consciousness of Cancer*
In 1987, when I first started my healing work, I was working with a hospice. They called me to help a patient named Claire with a visualization that would allow her to sleep. Like many terminal patients I had worked with, she was afraid to close her eyes, fearing that she might never wake up. The radiation treatments had left Claire as pale and insubstantial as the starched white sheets which covered her like a shroud. A flask of morphine at her bedside advertised her constant pain. She had been given two days to live.
Inside Claire's room it was as quiet as a mortuary, a feeling that was reinforced by the countless bouquets of flowers that surrounded her. They smelled like death. Outside the wind was howling around the corners of the house like a wild animal, and angrily spattering rain against the windows.
Claire asked me to help her. She didn't understand why she had cancer. She was only 43 years old, a good wife and the mother of three young children who needed her. She had never done anything really wrong in her whole life and she wanted to know "Why me?"
I had detected a strong energy around Claire, and so as was my usual practice then, I began talking to it, using my client as a channel. I asked the energy if it had a name. This is one of the ways I distinguished between energies and entities. Energies tended to have bizarre otherworldly names, while entities of earth origin usually had the kinds of names that you might give your children. This particular energy screamed a name that I'd never heard in a session before. It's name was Cancer.
"Have you ever had a body?" I asked.
"NO!" it shot back assertively, speaking at about ten times my client's normal frail whisper. I asked it where it had been before it was with Claire.
"I was with Jonathan!" it blustered.
"What happened to Jonathan?" I asked.
"I killed him!" it gloated.
And so it went, like wandering around a graveyard looking at the names on headstones with Jack the Ripper. It yelled out their names triumphantly, as though they were its trophies. Finally, I tired of this macabre tour.
"And how many other times have you entered the life fields of a human being to kill them?" I inquired.
"Thousands!" it proclaimed.
That's when it finally hit me. I wasn't just talking to something that had named itself after an astrological sign. I was really talking to the essence of cancer.
The consciousness of cancer, it proudly told me, encircled the earth like a huge cloud, 33,000 feet above the surface. It created illness the same way that other negative energies created fear. The more cancer it created, the more people feared it and cancer used their fear like a factory used electricity, becoming more and more powerful.
Once I started asking the right questions, I found that there were energies associated with all types of diseases. There was a mass consciousness of AIDS, a mass consciousness of bubonic plague, and a mass consciousness of addiction. There were energies of war, of famine, and of concentration camps.
The Hindus called these powerful energies Vritties. These energies could, once they acquired enough potential energy, manifest physically as earthquakes or other natural disasters, just as electric potential could manifest as lightning.
*The Consciousness of Religion*
I have been working to balance all types of consciousnesses for the last 13 years, and have heard every story that you can imagine. In the last few months, however, my job as a teacher / healer has changed a great deal. It seems spirit has a new job for me: to help the collective consciousness of religion find balance. How do I know this? Because people with these very issues have been coming to me in disproportionate numbers. I have worked with over 150 people whose job it has been to balance different religious areas on earth and help to bring peace between the religions and the energies that they represent. These are very old stories that go back thousands of years to areas in the middle East, Israel, parts of Africa, Asia, Tibet, China, Japan, India, Italy, England -- where many religious doctrines began.
There are around 1728 different religions on earth, over 72 names for God, over one billion Catholics, one billion Muslims. The energetics around these different belief systems create a very powerful and chaotic collective consciousness. In our history, how many people have suffered or died in the name of God? for their religious beliefs.
On March 12 of this year during a Sunday mass in St. Peter's Basilica in Rome, Pope John Paul II, delivered a papal apology, repenting for the errors of his church over the last 2000 years. He said that the new evangelization he is calling for in the third millennium can take place only after what he has described as a church-wide "purification of memory." The Pope called for Catholics to examine their collective conscience as there is "an objective collective responsibility" for past errors that modern Catholics should acknowledge and repent. (New York Times, March 13, 2000)
In Sydney, Toronto, Washington, DC, Atlanta, San Francisco the increase in my clients balancing the consciousness of religion is overwhelming. It's affecting everyone. The need for peace and non-judgment, love and non-separation is affecting our Heart & Soul like I have never seen or felt before.
I believe the religious struggle within ourselves is collapsing. We are becoming self aware. We know the truth and are questioning everything that does not feel in alignment with our heart. I believe heaven is defined by each of us and how we as humans live our lives. We are heaven on earth.
What I find amusing is that we have the power to change our world by changing ourselves -- by loving ourselves and learning how to let go of our past. I mean completely.
I would like to share the following two techniques. They are very powerful and will assist you on your own journey to heaven on earth. Remember, when you energetically separate yourself from anything, you are separating from everything. Are we one or are we separate? A question we will ask ourselves over and over is: How can I become one and have choices about how to feel or not feel each moment of my life?
*Pattern Release Technique*
I teach a powerful technique for releasing old energy patterns that are keeping you out of the moment. A good time to use this technique is while taking a bath. Plan for fifteen to thirty undisturbed minutes. Take off your jewelry, including your rings. Light a candle to represent a spiritual person you admire, such as Krishna, Sai Baba, Moses, Jesus, Mother Mary, or Buddha. Picture them with you. Feel the unconditional love this spiritual person reflects and recognize that place of love inside yourself.
Stare at the flame and release old feelings, thoughts, programs, issues, and fears. Allow them to flow through you. Say them either out loud or in silence. Your intention to clear yourself is most important.
Begin by releasing the things you are afraid of, such as losing your job, getting older, being poor, sick, or alone. Next release thoughts, feelings, and emotions you are holding, such as guilt, anger, hate, abandonment, separation, betrayal, grief, sorrow, or sadness. Release feelings of being helpless, hopeless, used, or trapped. Release feelings of pain and jealousy. Release all the feelings and projections of others that you have bought into. During the release, make an intention to keep the wisdom gained from these events and feelings.
Next, I want you to do something different and unique. I want you to release all the positive memories you are holding on to from your past. Are you holding on to the best Christmas you remember? Or the best present you ever received? Your first car or favorite home? Your first great love? Your proudest moment? A happy, loving time with your family? Food, sunsets, flowers -- release it all.
How many of you are holding these positive past events and feelings and using them to judge every experience you create today? Are you comparing every kiss or embrace today to an experience you had in the past? Release every positive experience from your past that is keeping you from being in the present moment and experiencing things for the first time.
During the release, make an intention to keep the wisdom, joy, and love from these positive past events. All youšre doing is releasing the energetic charges you are holding on to which are still causing you to have judgments and comparisons today. Once you have released all the charged negative and positive experiences from your past, shower or bathe with fresh water.
Positive experiences often have more of an energetic charge than your fears. Think about it. We do our best to heal the negative things from our past, but we may not realize wešre also comparing positive experiences. Releasing all charged memories is a helpful technique to aid us in staying in the moment.
A friend of mine who studied with a Buddhist priest came to visit me and we talked about all the changes taking place on Earth at this time. Right before he left, he gave me some information that was to change my life. He said there is a Buddhist belief that this is the last lifetime the priests are going to be here on Earth. He asked me, "Since this is to be their final life, do you know what is the last thing they have to release?" Pausing, since I had no answer, he said, "We have to release our rage."
His answer shocked me. I could not understand why a group of priests would feel they had any rage they needed to release. He said the key to what he had been taught was to let go of everything and go completely into rage. He explained when one goes into true rage, they lose total control. By being able to really be with our rage, it sets us free. Buddhism teaches we need to let go of every thought we are holding onto, because every such thought ties us to this reality. To fully transcend this dimension, we no longer could control anything.
Within a few minutes of his initial question about rage, my friend left. Even though we only spent three or four minutes discussing it, I really got to thinking about what he had said. Most of us are taught in the Western world not to express our anger, let alone our rage. As a healing facilitator, I see five or six people a day who tell me their lifešs story, which of course is my life story. As a result I get to look at my issues over and over again. After working with thousands of people, I know how much I work I have done on myself to keep myself clear and balanced.
Because I felt it was so important, the very next morning I decided to use my process of lucid dreaming to examine any rage I was still holding on to. To make it a real test for myself, I decided to start with the person with whom I had the biggest energetic charge or unresolved issues.
Now, if most of us were to be truly honest, we still have issues with our mother and father. Chances are whatever we experienced in our childhood was not close to our full potential of being loved. It was not until we were in our mid-thirties or even mid forties when we realized our parents loved us to the degree they loved themselves. Many of us still have issues with men or women and all of us have issues with anyone who should have helped us or protected us, but did not.
In addition, the times we have chosen to live in are very energetic. Any unresolved issues we may still have are showing up, almost daily, hopefully to be balanced and released. Because time is presently collapsing, the dualities we have been using to learn our issues are also moving towards each other, causing any of these unlearned lessons to intensify, becoming more energetic or solid in feeling. As I got ready to address any rage I might be holding onto, I realized the issues I have with my mother and father and others had become solid.
So what were the issues I had with them? They were really simple. My mother was not the way I wanted her to be as I was growing up. As a child I wanted her to be kinder, happier, more loving and gentler towards me. Now, as an adult, I realized that really, there was nothing wrong with her. She was perfect. She was always the way she was. I was the one still holding on to all the ways I wanted my mother to be. I still had a lot of unfulfilled expectations and judgments about her. However, whatever issues I had with her were really my problem and I would not be able to heal them until I let go of myself. I knew that if I had rage about things that happened to me, I could not blame another person.
Then it was time. I was ready. Being as focused, balanced and present as I knew how to be, I allowed myself to go into the angry and frustrated feelings I was holding about my mother. I completely immersed myself in the energy. Almost immediately it felt as if I was being pulled into a vast floating pool of emotion -- a space without an end, a place with no boundaries. I did not know where I was. I was lost in my own emotions. I was concerned, because I didn't know how to get out.
As I completely surrendered to the energy I was feeling, I emerged from it. When I checked in to see how I was feeling, I realized I felt nothing towards my mother. Since I had been the one holding onto all the feelings of the past, as soon as I let go, there was nothing left. The only thing I felt was I was clear and a little giddy. As I thought about my mother, it did not seem to matter if she was my mother or not. In that moment I experienced a profound sense of newly found freedom. The only thing I knew for sure about my mother was that she was not the person I thought she could have been. My unfilled needs and judgments had defined my mother in the past, so, as soon as I let go of my definitions and feelings, there was no one there. I was free of my rage and free of my past. By my willingness to completely let go, I began to experience a new reality.
Enjoying how free and different I felt, I decided to examine any one else I was holding on to in the same way. Even after all the work I have done with myself, I was surprised to find there were still twenty people with whom I had rage, plus institutions, such as the IRS and the Church. I went through the rage release process with each of them, including the institutions. After doing so, my mind became quiet and I was overcome with feelings of compassion, allowance and peace, unlike anything I had ever experienced.
*Lucid Dreaming and a Technique to Release Rage*
Lucid dreaming is a powerful creative state which can be used for understanding and creating our lives. When you practice Lucid Dreaming, you are working in the next dimension, the dimension of instantaneous creation. The more you consciously use the dreaming process, the more you become conscious of your creation, increasing your skill of instantaneous creation. All of us are moving to that magical space, but it can scare us because we are not sure what these powerful skills will bring. Just think, if the next thought you had changed your entire world, few of us would be prepared to be that responsible for our continuous thoughts. Most of us might be good for a couple of minutes, but not for an hour or two. Lucid dreaming is perfect to practice our ability of instantaneous creation.
Releasing rage can also be accomplished in a similar manner. Begin by thinking of a person with whom you have a lot of unresolved rage, anger or sadness. Focus on the feelings that come for you concerning that person, go into them very intensely. Do not physically act them out. That is, do not yell or pound your pillow. Even though you are not outwardly expressing anything, this is a very powerful internal process. Continue being with your feelings until your rage, anger and sadness have dissolved and all is quiet.
Do not censor your experience. Go inward and feel the emotions that come up, such as anger, despair, sadness. To benefit the most from this process, do not hold back your emotions. If you feel anger as you begin to do this release, go into the anger, donšt retreat. You will be going into a void, which reflects whatever you are feeling back to you. Go with the feelings you are holding towards the person you have selected. Think about them, getting into whatever feeling or emotion that comes forward.
The mirror of the void reflects your feelings back to you. As soon as you match them -- really feel them -- you will move into those feelings. You will lose total control and just for a moment it might feel a little scary. Remember, what you are feeling is you. You are the one trapped in twenty or thirty years of inappropriate thoughts -- locked into those vibrations. This is what the Buddhists meant when they say it is important to lose control of every single thought we have ever had. This is how we can completely let go.
As soon as you step into your own stuff, you will be out of control. This will feel similar to the times in your life when you physically went into rage. For those of you who have done this, remember how out-of-control you were. It was only when you came out of it that you realized you had broken some object(s) or said wild things. Donšt worry, however, when doing this practice, that this will happen to you. It is safe using the lucid dreaming process, for you are only out of control in a dream.
You may repeat the exercise more than once. The first time you experience this will be the most intense. Give yourself time to process after the first exercise and wait perhaps a month. If you still feel a residue of old feelings, repeat this process until you feel nothing. Your inner voice will tell you when to do it again.
My dynamics with the twenty people I worked with during my rage release changed, but more importantly, my whole life changed. Of the original twenty, only a few of the people were still present in my life. However, the feelings I had for them continued to be reflected onto new people who came into my life. Because my feelings of the past had remained unresolved, Spirit kept drawing similar people and situations into my life. Each time I recreated the energetics, I gave myself another opportunity to understand what I had been creating.
I have done the rage release process three separate times. Each time, I repeated the process with all twenty people. The first time I did it, I came out with nothing, with no feeling at all. However, my rage was gone. The second time I did it, I came out with feelings of love and compassion. The third time I did it, I came out with feelings of pure love. And, as those feeling of pure love existed within me, they also changed the world that exists outside of me.